Quality VS Quanity

I spent four hours with my friend who knows the Bible better than any woman I have ever met in my entire life or even heard of! I am beyond blessed to have an open door policy with her and soak up her wisdom!  She has been going for two months and I went to see her this morning! We ended up dissecting parts of the Bible for four hours!  I question question and questions some more and she shows me what the Bible said!
One thing I learned today was that quality time can not be planned! Quality time happens with quantity time.  This goes along with my family time! It is so true, when we are together for a long period of time we are so happy because so many bits of quality time and teachable moments are happening.  I also find that I do this with my spiritual walk too! I like to have all the right components when doing my studies:
1. Kids asleep or away from the house
2. House clean
3. my Ipad at hand for easy access to the Bible translations
4. two sharpened pencils
5. My notebook labeled for notes
6. Study
High maintanced I guess but I get so much out of it when I am in my element.

I really am trying really hard to be understand what I believe and why I believe in them.   The importance of baptism.  I never really put into account the importance of Apollos' teachings and what context it was in.  Paul begins Acts 18 discussing how people were believing and being baptized then it goes into how Apollos was teaching Jesus but only knew of John's baptism(the one before Jesus died/old covenant). Priscilla and Aquilla told him about God more adequately and we infer it was about the correct baptism.   Read for yourself, I believe you must be baptized to receive the HS. 

My biggest Bible question at this point is polygamy.  I don't get it it! My only understanding at this time is that it was for the purpose of being fruitful and multiplying and now it is not needed. I also know it mentions for elders and deacons to have one wife.  There are few other verses but, nothing to say it is sinful.  Looking for more answers.  I know Paul touches on it indirectly too in Cor.

One more thing I learned is the main reason the CoC doesn't use instruments! It was so revelation to me!  It has to do with the new church fulfilling the old law and now instead of using instruments, we are the instruments.  Hey, you know I love a band with worship!  It was just a big revelation for me and I feel good about it!  SO GOOD!

There was so much more and I am so happy to use this blog to share my new revelations and lessons!  Praising God!

Idenity Crisis

Our Chriatian job is not to be Gods PR if you will...it is ..drum roll please...to let Christ transform us in Christ with the Spirit! We aren't instructed to have cool buildings with cool people singing cool songs with cool ideas that make being a Christian cool! We are instructed to be transformed in Christ! Take your Bible, a KJV and go through Ephesians underlining "in Christ". There ya go! You heard by Paul first folks! You are IN Christ and he is working throughh you! If you let that soak in you will realize you are more than a walking human in this world trying to sugar coat why you love Jesus! You are walking in Him which his spirit lives in you! This may cause an idenity crisis and I am pretty sure it was meant to!

This leads to my big question of if Christ lives in us and God does not bond with sin and we live in sin then does a Chrisitan who lives in constant sin without repenting have Christ in them or are they in Christ? Scary thought but he tells us that the righteous will inherit the Kingdom. Time for me to get alittl more. Rightious.

Delight in the Lord...

I am sure you know the rest of that verse. "Delight in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart." Psalms 37:4
I have based almost all my prayers on this verse and it wasn't until last night that the truth of this hit me!  I would smile in my prayers and then say, "Lord, I desire to sell my house, I desire to have a part time job, I desire to help grow the women's ministry at my church.....
Well, I just thought those were the desires of my heart! I was challenged last night to peel the onion! Now my heart's desire is not any of these...let's look at my heart's desire....
House: sell house....want more room, want to host more events, want my husband to come home earlier, want to be closer to target.....
I wanted a part time job when I was working full time.  My desire was never to work part time but, to stay at home with my children so that I could teach them in my ways/God's ways!  That was my hearts desire. I wanted away from the stress, I wanted to be a better mother and wife and my heart knew that if I had a job that gave me more flexibility I would do that! 

I want the women's ministry to grow, not because I want more friends but, I want women to feel connected and know Christ! I truly desire for the women of our church to know Christ more.  If they know Christ more their kids will know Christ more.  It is a win win!  Connected in and with Christ!

So my prayers have changed...not only in that way but in many other ways that I will be blogging about.  The study that has pricked my heart to really be in prayer and study is Live a Praying Life by Jennifer Kennedy Dean.  It is literally rocking my world. 

With my previous experiences with God's Word, I am mixing up a recipe that is really challenging me to be redefined in my prayer life.

First Post

I decided that I would start this blog to post my revelations that the Holy Spirit is showing me. I wish I would have started this 15 years ago.  God has refined my life with so many different experiences, revelations, people, shouts, and whispers. I have seen God move in and out of my life and I believe in his power.  God made it very clear to me in college that I would be used for his kingdom and if you have walked with me the last ten or so years you will see the fight I have battled with being luke warm.  I find it easier for me to be on the fence. I believe that for the most part I have always been a God Chaser.  That was the first spiritual book I ever read and it spoke to me in high school!

I am very unrefined, I have so much sin that is woven in me. The sins I struggle with are generational, cultural, learned, defensive, and ones that I just plain love. Yes, I said it! I have sins that I do not want to depart from! Isn't that sick! Okay, so I do want to depart from them but, when the setting is right....I just give in and it feels so good, until I self reflect and then I am back in the cycle of asking for forgiveness and trying to execute those desires. I also believe there are always going ot be sins in our lives that God reveals to us. So when it comes to being real...that is real. I am sinful by nature but, I am so relaxed in knowing that God still loves me and wants to abide in this sinful body. God loves his righteous people. God does not abide with sin! He does however clean us out so that he can live in us.  The more of him, the less of sin...right? So here we go on my journey of being redefined in mind and spirit and most of all heart. I want the desire of my heart to be that Christ be glorified! That is my quest!  Thanks for joining me.